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Thursday, March 28, 2002
I had just met up with Pastor Jody Moore, who will be the speaker for the CEFC Youth Camp this year. An awesome man and very very passionate for God. He and his wife just had a baby about 7 weeks ago, and her name is Kameron, a bundle of joy I bet! We had a good time just talking about what we see happening during the Youth Camp and what our goals were. We also talked about the theme which is "Shattered" based on I Corinthians 13:12. I am very excited to see what is going to happen these next few months in the camp, it is one of the things in my life that is really keeping me going. I can really relate to our theme through all the things I have been going through recently and the past 2 years. I just have to keep pressing on and continue to rely on God's strength and not mine. So I had several days to try to start making my new website redesign. I have started, but I dont think I will be finishing this week. Actually I barely started it, and I dont think it will be done anytime soon. Usually at work in the afternoons I play billiards with my co-worker Robert. Yesterday he started getting all mad for some reason, well he has this competitive attitude, and he always thinks he is so good or something. OK, so yes he is good, but he also could work on his composure, he gets out of hand sometimes and he sometimes get so frustrated that you get mixed up if he is angry at you or not. I was like, "Chill man! Why do you have to get so upset at playing pool at work?!" Goodness Gracious! I saw Beautiful Mind last night with Tiff and it was a pretty darn good movie I might say. Its kind of hard to see "The Gladiator" play a role like that though. But can you just imagine if you had a husband (or wife) do what he was doing in the movie. Whew! Friday, March 22, 2002
one practical thing I have learned this week. NEVER EVER scratch your eye after handling any type of chillis with your hands! Oh Good Gracious!!! It will burn your eye and around your eye like none other! I went to go wash my eye off with some cold water for about 10 minutes, and it OH SO burned still like mad! It looked like I was just crying in one eye cuz it was so red and the other eye was nornal. BOY!!...the practical things we learn the hard way. Wednesday, March 20, 2002
I was taking my final yesterday which was an essay format, and so as my professor was handing out the blue books (to write our essay on) the 2 questions were in a handout inside the booklet. The professor said, "Dont open the booklet yet, wait till I say so." I SOOO had this urge to just open the booklet and peek at the questions. But I didnt, so I told Tina, who was sitting next to me, "Hey man open it, open it!!" And she opened it! haha! =) This brings me back to the days of taking SATs when the proctor says to not open to the "next section." Dood I would peek! But now that I think about it, it didnt give me any advantage at all. Anyways, that was a meaningless reminiscence. As far as finding the true Love of God, I have realized that there were alot of things that God has placed upon me to really test me if I had faith based on "my own" faith. There have been many tests placed upon me since going to Singapore and coming back from Singapore, and its been a really hard lesson, cuz He brought me to a point where I was just so broken and I had no where else to turn to but to Him. (I am still in the process of analyzing it and learning from this, so a more detailed testiony can be given if you just ask me later.) Even if I have come to realize this, am I feeling the Love of God? I am not sure, because I dont feel like I am so on fire or have this whole desire to pull a 180 and change my own selfish ways, sins, and to give everything up to God. I mean I do have a desire to change and give some things up to God (for example my broken relationships with my family and some friends), but maybe not so drastically that my whole life is turned upside down. Maybe Pete and Jacob are right (comment from blog before) that I already do have the Love of God, I just have to realize it. But how do it feel it? Sunday, March 17, 2002
When I was driving back to my apartment in Irvine, and when I stopped at the intersection of Campus and University, I saw a woman on a wheelchair fall to the ground. She was with another guy who was trying to help her get up, but he seemed kinda distressed for some reason, and that he seemed like he couldn't get her back up on the chair. As I was waiting at the red light, I thought, WWJD. So when the light turned green I drove across the intersection and then I parked on the side and turned my hazards on. I ran across the crosswalk, and helped the woman get back on her wheelchair so she can just cross the street. (on another note) I have been realizing that I truly need the love of God, for without it, I am nothing. So many things in the past year and a half since I came back from my trip from Singapore has made me realize that I am nothing without God in my life. I have been so sinful, selfish, and still take God for granted. Why am I so selfish like this? I need the Love of God in my life. How can I obtain this Love? Just by a simplre prayer? (done that) By a long prayer? (done that) If it's a process that God is teaching me, then I am definitely learning. I have been searching for this Love and I have to find it somehow. Thursday, March 14, 2002
Well yesterday i just finished the easiest class in my 17 years of school history, ICS 139W. It was easier than kindergarten, the hardest part is just trying to make it to class so that you can sign in for attendance. Now I just have 2 more classes to worry about, the software project course and this asian american history class. I think I just have one final for next week and then I am all done with winter quarter, one of the easiest quarters academically in my UCI career. Wednesday, March 13, 2002
thank god this day is almost over, i thought it would never end. i still have to face tomorrow and there will be more days to face after that and have to get through, i have to keep taking it day by day, just a little at a time, and rely on God's power to get through. there is no other way. Tuesday, March 12, 2002
Well I was hoping for a larger response, but I guess not that many people really read my blog. But thats okay, it turned out I didnt have to pop any zit or anything, it went away quickly. Well softball intrameural season is coming up soon and I am totally excited about it and I can feel it in the air already (well before it was cloudy) that the spring time is near. My team "Hard Ballz" are defending men's champions this year and I hope we get the same team out there again. Memorable moments include.... -beating a team 31-10 -starting out 0-2, then winning the rest of the games we played and finished 6-2. -during the first round in playoffs, bottom of the 7th inning, 1 run down, 2 outs, man on 2nd and 3rd, I hit the game winning 2 run single to advance to the next game. -a person named "Danny" on our team who's real name is "Chris." =) Sunday, March 10, 2002
the 89' brown maxima resurrected and has been given new life from the car junk yard back to my driveway in west covina!.....although this resurrection cost a price of $900 for a new engine and $100 for towing to the repair place. although my dad is going to start driving it because i know he has been wanting to drive automatic recently, so i am going to be driving the 91' blue camry now. ok, i think i am getting a massive zit, although its not fully developed, i can feel it, and it hurts. yes one of those hurtin' zits. should i...... a) leave it alone b) pop that baby c) you give me your personal response Wednesday, March 06, 2002
I watched a movie tonight at my apartment. I have to say that I have just watched one of the most brilliant and exceptional movies made. "Memento" One of those movies you just have to watch again and again to undertand. Gotta love it man. That's what makes a movie, a good movie. On a side note, be merciful, patient, and loving, for they build character. Monday, March 04, 2002
(meaningless blog) my butt and the bottom of my feet are sore....why you ask?....i played tackle football on saturday afternoon at corona del mar beach.....it was sweet running over people and dragging them over the sand while running with the ball....although i got hit quite a few times as well, but it was totally fun......a good way to get some agression out and procrastinate on doing my papers......and you're right steve, i am a bad decision maker most of the times....but the last touchdown pass for the win was sweet wasn't it?! |